if i stop being caught up in my own head all the time, i can feel better about things
telling myself i will be happy when its summer
something to look forward to, i guess
the only music that i did actually end up getting back into and actually liking, got destroyed: when my car got crashed into AND when my old laptop commited suicide. obviously it still exists, but it was hard getting back into it in the first place, so it makes it all the more harder to get BACK BACK into it, ehhh
thought explosion ahead… i just feel like i never open up to anyone because ive been hurt a few times/i fear people wont like what they see, so i make connections with people and get a little close and then get scared and push them away. and i hate it. but im desperately lonely, and i just get stuck in this cycle, and the more connections i make with people, i dont even feel better about...
end of the weekend
had a good fucking day and now that im alone im just filled with paranoia and guilt. wish i could go into it with someone without a fuckload of judgement, eh
when my m8
used to msg me for n00ds, so i just googled ‘boobs’ and msg’d him something off the first page. he got real disappointed when he realised they were never mine lal
what did i do? went to work and saw robin hood and tried to numb it with someone else. WHY did this come up right now? go away
know if i can sympathise with you on that level, hm
i a bad person? been considering for a while
Anonymous asked: how long has it been since you last had sex?
a party in my room right now because i am SO KEEN that i have tomorow off (BAR A UNI LAB SCHEDULED FOR 10AM-1PM THAT APPARENTLY ONLY GOES FOR 40MINS) which means right now is my weekend (working sat night, but shh). EVERYONE IS INVITED TO MY ROOM PARTY! work just got all the more stressful, but it will all be okay in a few months :)
really off uni, would be happy to drop out right now until next semester, but i have dragged my degree out enough already/im really off work too, so i have nothing else to do except sleep/sit in bed, but that is boring in itself, as i am here too often. so pretty much all i want to do is hangout with awesome people 24/7 but i am too off everything else at the moment that i end up being shit...
lesbian dreams hello too bad i repel girls
just heaps off it
i dont know. wish i didnt think about things in too much detail.
is it weird
being jealous about someone i hardly know? frivolous ideas…
went through my posts and tagged all of my selfies, for myself and for the lurkers. /irrelevant
” i love my mates, and we do give each other the shits sometimes, but i hope nothing changes” i posted this last wednesday night, lol. glad i jinxed myself.
i wish my mind was like a whiteboard and i could just wipe it clean and fill it with new things to think about. instead it has permanent marker scribbled layers upon layers.
we're like naughts and crosses
in that opposites always attract. cant help it.