September 2009
another day.
i see what they mean now when they say you have to love yourself before you can love others. its hard to feel things for others when you feel empty. words like empty sound so desparate and dumb, and embarrassing. but i feel both desparate and dumb so does this mean i can use them? i hate that i seem to be pushing people away from me, but no ones pushing back. i cant feel any pushing. i try to tell...
i still
dont think im doing it right. im not sure if i know how to.
manchester orchestra.
I could feel a hot one taking me down
For a moment, I could feel the force
Fainted to the point of tears
And you were holding on to make a point
What’s the point?
I’m but a clean man, stable and alone man
Make it so I won’t have to try
The faces always stay the same
So I face the fact that I’m just fine
I said that I’m just fine
I remember, head down,
After you had...
if you wanted me to be there
why didnt you ask?
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something that makes me smile when i am being a saddie: online 20Q
hehe mistaking my “estuary” for “embryo” ahahhahah and “teepee” hahha as if you wouldnt get estuary. estuaries need love and can be painted. i might continue this instead of socialising.
sometimes i wish i could ask for help but i dont know how.
i think i spend most of my time sitting around, waiting for things to happen. i dont actually make anything happen in fear of getting hurt. good life.
“Yeah we’ll give our child a traditional indian name… like Flat...”
– kworm
100degrees
guys, im in love. like seriously sosososoosososo much. like its so cute i want to die. i love my house’s current lack of hot water.
but i really do love my boyfriend who lives half an hour away who lets me use his hot water. mm its too early to deal with this.
the worst/best way to empty a room.
a simple (“wrong”) way to disprove an alleged pregnancy to friends - threaten to pull out tampon in front of them.
je suis amazing.
lay low, speak slow.
i feel warm and fuzzy inside but my head and my feet are fucking freezing.
