December 2009
two and a half weeks
fuck gimme somma dat sex. this is the longest i have gone without it since… september 08. haha, i guess i can deal with that
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develop an inappropriate crush on me.
i already have too many of those im afraid !
achieved anything yet....
things to look forward to ! (posted a month ago)
even if theyre not that exciting, still on the to do list !
watching lord of the rings trilogy with worm - have the first on vhs ready to watch
seeing where the wild things are - hopefully wednesday
seeing cloudy with a chance of meatballs
reading new moon now that im 115 pages into it thanks to boredom at work today.
seeing new moon (when there is less hype/crowds)
having a party for my 19th when my family will be away - unlikely due to work commitments
27th dec - 1st jan taken off work for new years and road trip soz new years werk owns me
28th nov - jasmin’s party, tom’s party, sam’s party (pick one) went to jasminnnns
christmas
work christmas party
pat’s birthday
finishing uni exams
working for new moon/COMMISSION ontop of normal wages/lots of shifts ermm no commission due to new moon being crap and no one cares about merchandise, might get a tiny bit. shifts arent that much yet, but payrise :)
beach and more
figuring out what to do next year (then getting excited about it)/finding a second job? hoyts manager :)
hanging with bono
hanging with courtney (and watching one tree hill)
buying tv box sets
watching xmen quadrilogy - got it today betch
seeing the time travellers wife its finished :( so watch on dvd cos rachel mcadams
seeing mj’s this is it finsihed plus wasnt as keen for it anyways, sozza
seeing planet 51 (i like movies okay) erm soz planet 51
seeing toy story 3
getting rsa/rcg was booked but fuck ya i got a promotion, didnt do it
saving money
painting my wall
working for erina’s christmas party kiara wouldnt let me, it was her bdayyy
going to forster
playing laser force (with kiara)
squash
luna park
queensland hopefully (???)
taylor swift in concert (undecided) fuck ya bitch sold out.
jump rock
buying new swimmers (that fit my boobies) but y’already knew that
buying/downloading new music
giving elliot’s chem textbook back (hope i dont fail chem…)
hanging with kai actually youre creepy so might pass
reading books i bought before the trial hsc (year and a half ago)
actually calling the counselor i was referred to two weeks ago
fanuary (ahahaha except probably not) it was a joke in the first place but i need to cross it off anyways haha cos it aint happening
NO FUCKING WONDER MY VAG HURTS THESE ARE SCENTED TAMPONS.
GODDAMNIT.
THE AMOUNT OF WAT AT THIS POST IS ENORMOUS
Scented tampons have been known to irritate sensitive vaginas.
Goodbye “wat”.
scented tampons exist? i have never heard of this…
“to make your period smell pretty”?
i want UP on dvd!
have to wait till 2 days before my birthday till it comes out here, devo ! but good birthday present :)
im going to a mexican themed party tonight
but i was unorganised and went to the shops to buy a sombrero after the shops had closed, devo. so now i hardly look mexican, as my dress/”poncho” is actually my sisters dress which is from greece… should i add a moustache?
so the whole 'i have too many clothes' situation just got worse
just opened a drawer and its full of clothes i didn’t even know i had.
maybe i should re-think me ‘no throwing away’ policy.
my wardrobe is full and not even half of what i still wear is in there.
bah i hate tidying when there’s no room for anything to go!
send them to meeeee
i hate having to
justify or defend my laziness.
“i stayed in bed all day watching dvds because, well, i can”
haha, my only proper responsibility is work at the moment, i dont have to feel guilty for being a slob, ill do somethign more productive another day… i have a year off :)
last night, i had a dream my boyfriend broke up with me
it was horrible, i woke up in a complete panic but thankfully it was only a dream. i don’t know why i have to have bad dreams like that :(
i had a dream where i had “tongue clamydia” and in the morning i didnt know if it was real or not !
...
i feel like i cant just be my usual self and joke around about anything and be a dick anymore, because people will interpret it the wrong way. i love sex and like joking about it and being a dick, and just talking about it in general, im quite open like that. like telling people i just want head all the time, because i fucking do haha. but i cant be that open anymore, because someone took advantage of it.
ehh sucks having to edit my behaviour.
yep
fucking awesome having to sit in an office with you for an hour and a half and trying to be normal about it, when there was so much awkwardness it was hard to think. made it worse that you smelt good. i dont know whats better, if i never saw him again, or if i got used to having to deal with him on a regular basis? guess its not really up to me when i run into him…
really if you looked at my life now compared to before that night, and had no idea of what happened, you probably wouldnt have a clue that it did. not much is all that different. i havent lost any friends over it, not that many people know. no one makes references to it, except the occaaaaaaaaaaisonal one when i talk to kyle. kyle and i are pretty much the same as before it happened, except we arent officially boyfriend and girlfriend anymore. we are still together, we still act the same, still refer to each other as girlf/boyf but mostly because its easier than expaining or defining it any other way.
well, one other person has made reference to it (apart from the initial aftermath), my manager yesterday asking if me and my boyfriend had gotten back together. i said yes, easy enough to answer, but then she asked how long ago we did, and said she knew we would work it out. i dont even remember what i said, i didnt want to explain it because its confusing, but truthfully we were never apart.
i didnt like it, because obviously i dont want my employers/coworkers knowing all of my shit, but i guess repercussions were expected, and yeah i can deal.
obviously. i dealt with today, and i dealt with yesterday. i havent dealt with telling courtney my best friend, i just cant, dont know how. its not like ive TOLD anyone about it, that didnt already know/find out from others. i dont know, dealing with things isnt my strong point.
obviously, again. because i never went to that 3rd doctors appointment and never rescheduled, and never called that psychologist. i cant really tell you why i havent, i just dont want to, and cant explain it.
yep, novel.
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