November 2009
i dont know what happened.
its like the past 4-6 weeks have been for nothing, out of no where im rolling around on my bed crying into a pillow feeling depressed and lonely and i dont know how to get out of it again. i want to be filled with at least some hope but i cant see any.
just bought a ps2 on ebay.
$45.50 yeww
worm is a lucky this christmas !
now gotta give him some good games !
is it bad that i asked my boyfriends room-mate to...
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they’re both guys and all. :’)
not at all ! my boyfriends and his friends kiss all the time when being idiots and/or drunk ! i swear none of them are gay… except maybe one ? better watch out for him ahah
i was a caveman tonight.
i went to a fancy dress party. organised my outfit within half an hour before leaving for the party. looked super dooper ! but no pictures unfortunately :( maybe on a friends camera. got a good amount of drunk with my work buddies and danced and had alot of fun ! then chad drove me home because he wanted to leave, even though i wanted to stay. but im very glad i went :)
and i totally...
did my bit to make everyone happy today.
folded cute origami cranes for everyone at work today to make them smile. im such a nice friend haha. work was quite boring. i finished new moon there though ! its hard not to think about twilight when im surrounded by it all day.
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look at the criteria. this stuff really irks me. i know selective breeding is done all the time in agriculture but where do we draw the line when playing with human genetics? i could rant about this for ages but i wont even get started. ive already done 3500 word projects and speeches on this topic for school/uni and im going to learn more.
the thing is, im super interested in genetics and in my...
4 to 6 weeks.
they were right, its working. i feel happier :)
biomed exam today was hard, due to having to know everything about everything. why dont you just ask me to recite a textbook?
its been so hottttttttt lately, summer’s coming :) and lucky me gets to work for the next two days while new moon comes out, woohoo air con! im hoping the twi-hards arent as bad as im expecting. because im expecting...
LIKE A WORM
he’s a cutie, my worm. being a brave, fightin fires !
i smell so fucking good
thanks to a certain boy. i guess thats what i get for wearing his shirt, wearing his deoderant, and being with him all day getting love hugs ! :)
hmmm
10.00pm and have an exam in less than twleve hours… im thinking i will start study now. ive never been like this with school or uni, leaving it so last minute. i just kind of gave up/dont care. get to wake up my worma tomorow after the exam though :) then back to study for tuesday’s exam, probably with the same attitude i have for tomorow’s !
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because i think im funny
guess which one is warped !
(eye looks really weird in the second one thanks to my glasses, whoa!)
things to look forward to !
even if theyre not that exciting, still on the to do list !
watching lord of the rings trilogy with worm
seeing where the wild things are
seeing cloudy with a chance of meatballs
reading new moon now that im 115 pages into it thanks to boredom at work today.
seeing new moon (when there is less hype/crowds)
having a party for my 19th when my family will be away
27th dec - 1st jan taken...
and just so i remember later.
i want to post a list of things i am looking forward to, because it will help me be more positive, and i like lists !
also i should add that ive been feeling really good since monday ! like happy. i can classify it as happy. which i havent felt in a while, unless im doing fun things, which is usually with worm. ive just felt happy for no reason. so thats good :) i hope it stayssssss
going
to see 2012 tonight. cool.
id enjoy hanging at home a bit more if i had something to do here. ever since finishing gilmore girls, which was hmmm idunno, a week, 2 weeks ago (?), all ive done here is: watch skins season 3 (over 2 days) watch arrested development (at least six episodes, probably more, in one night), play age of empires (up to a hard mission, ugh) and spend ridiculous amounts of...
so weird.
feeling the blood moving through my head. not throbbing or anything, just swishing and flowing. its so loud.
recluse.
cant deal with anything, no motivation to do it. or to do anything. cant be fucked studying because i hardly give a crap. i dont even want to see kyle. its hard to feel the same as i did. blah blah blah.
i get so caught up
reading other people’s tumblrs that i forget about updating my own. or figure nothing’s interesting enough.
well guess what, im stuck in a rut, whats new. but still nothing seems to be stabilising me, so its all kind of wobbly. like right now i dont feel sad, but i dont feel good about ANYTHING. all i want is to feel excited about something ! i sometimes feel it a little about my...
